We love people who hurt us and hurt people, who love us,
My heart was taken by you, loved by you & now is in p i e c e s because of you.
Just because I took that backward fall and said “I love you”
Matrimony was the destination of this ride.
Through the ups and downs I vowed to forever be by your side
Even though I knew it sounded, crazy, far-fetched.
But I saw no end with you because the power of God & love would ensure we’d make the stretch.
Whilst in the driver’s seat…you start to doubt, we begin to slow down.
Then you decide to completely pump the brake.
You look to me & say “I need time for me, so this is it”
You see the sorrow and remain adamant that you still love me?
There were so many things that should have been done, should have been spoken,
Instead you’re no longer here and every bit of me is broken.
Falling in love with you was unbelievable, scary and brisk,
I fought my fears because I believed you were worthy, worth the risk.
Being heartbroken is something I can’t deal with, something I can’t digest.
Is this heart break?, smiling to the world with a pulsating pain in my chest.
A millions words could not you bring you back, I know because I’ve tried.
Neither would a trillion tears, I know because I’ve cried.
Was you not meant to be my confider, my solider?
Love me, protect me and never let’s go off me
I hear your name, the pain resurfaces and tears begin to stream my face,
Wondering if the last time, really was the last time I get such loving embrace.
“Eventually you’ll get over it” they say,
With time this wound will go away,
Is that what you say? Is that what keeps your conscious clear?
Wondering “Has she moved on from me, she really needs to let me go”
Remember wounds may go but the deepest pain leaves the deadliest scar,
I fear to love another,
So potentials become a friend, a brother or an insignificant other
You’ve made liking someone feel like I’m at a disadvantage
This is what it feels like to scared, paranoid, damaged,
All the while I was holding on, you were letting go
Will he do the same.. that is something I will never know,
Frustrated that this wound does not have a due date for when it will be done healing,
I question for you was any of it real?
I would’ve rather you broken my neck, than broken my heart
It would have healed quicker,
I would rather you cheated than just say “I love you but it’s over”
It would have been easier.
You’ve left, you’re gone,
But I know that God has a greater plan for me so my life must go on,
My dreams and ambitions I’ve always knew,
My dreams are and always have been bigger than you.
I’m a phoenix I’m rising from the ashes of your broken promises and disappointment,
I give God all the appraisement
When you’re ready to have what you letting go of right now,
Know I was the woman that never broke her vow.
If she breaks you the way you broke me,
Know that this is karma giving you a first class delivery,
You’re hurt, broken, shattered & crushed
Understand we love people who hurt us and hurt people who love us